september 04, 2019 6:42am
email from kyo matsuoka, meditation teacher
september 01, 2019 12:33 noon
voicemail from efthymis filippou, friend and collaborator
august 28, 2019 6:38pm
email from natasa lambrou, younger sister
hello ilias .
i liked our walk the other day . you seemed to be very present with yourself . i know this year has brought back many deep rooted saṅkhāras in you but i see you developing growth and equanimity as well . i am very happy that you told me you are in a better place .
i am writing because have been thinking about your offer . as i have told you this is somewhat of a complicated thing for me as i do have a couple other students i must balance . but i spoke to my old friend ruth who says that she will be able to take my students while i go to texas . i like the idea of having group sittings with the cast and crew !
ilias , it is very important for us to maintain consistency of practice during this time .
( also please understand that these are very particular circumstances i am in . i cannot come with you every time you will be shooting a movie . and it is important for you to develop the practice on your own ! as you know dhamma is a path that only you can walk . i am here to help , i cannot take you there )
thank you again for your help during these difficult months . i just received your check . keep me updated on what the scheduling will be like so i can make arrangements .
maintain equanimity on your flight ilias !!! good luck in toronto
best,
Kyo Matsuoka
May all beings have happiness and the causes of happiness.
May all beings be free from suffering and the causes of suffering.
May all beings rejoice in the well-being of others.
May all beings live in peace, free from greed and hatred.
Hey ilias.
We just got out of Joshua Tree. i left Melina and Ivan at the airport and they’re on the way to produce the album in Sweden. Here’s a video I took of them and the crew. Ivan is doing really well, he wants to give you a call soon. Melina’s phone fell into the pool so she might be hard to reach but she’s going to have Ivan send you a link to some 3-day meditation retreat in some desert in the Guajira. She got really fucking stoned and wouldn’t stop talking about the three of us going.
i’m sorry about the last email I sent you. I think sometimes you start to forget that we all grew up with Stavros. It was wrong for me to suggest speaking to him. You know my feelings are complicated, but I totally understand why you have distanced yourself. Of course I do. Melina and I had a lot talks about this over the past few weeks. I’m really really am sorry if I’ve been difficult about this decision you two made. i hope you understand that it’s hard for me, i still see everyone every couple weeks.
The things we grew up with are very hard to process but I love you both and I wouldn’t have been able to make it without you two.
That said… I don’t hear from you very often and sometimes it makes me think that you don’t want anything to do with me either. Our father asks me about both of you every time we meet up. it makes me sad- for me, not for him- when I don’t have news to tell. Again, I’m sorry I was an asshole. Things were difficult for me this summer.
I love you, good luck in Toronto
N.L